I am convinced

I am convinced that there is something wrong with me. I'm not exactly sure what it is (though I do have a few ideas). I have been loosing energy all week... everyday a little more is sucked from me leaving me feeling down, lazy, unmotivated, and not wanting to do things. I didn't feel like going to vespers tonight (I went anyway), I didn't feel like going to supper (ended up making ramen in my room which I started around 8:20 and then my power went out until almost 10), I didn't feel like going to my one class today, and I didn't really feel like hanging out with my friends.

I had this huge long list of stuff to do this afternoon. Do you think I got it done? NO! I got a couple things done but that's about it. I tried and tried and tried to get ahold of someone I had some questions for regarding a lot of the list and they didn't answer any time I called and didn't respond to any IMs either. I had been trying since about 1:00 this afternoon and didn't get any answer until about 8:30 tonight.

I miss my friends from academy, I miss hanging out with them, I miss talking with them, I miss joking around, getting massages, listening to music, complaining, picking on each other, comforting and being comforted, just sitting in their rooms not saying anything... you don't have to because they already know. I miss the fun times, sad times, happy times, exciting times, irratating times, trying times, good times, bad times, and every time in between. I miss when life wasn't so complicated and the biggest thing I complained about was yearbook!

I miss you guys with all of my heart. It hurts me so much that I don't get to see you everyday and that I don't even get to TALK to you everyday. I love you all!!!!! (sorry I didn't include pictures of everyone it would take too long but I love you anyway)