Thinking...

I've been thinking the past week or so about how much I want to go somewhere... travel... explore somewhere new... visit friends that now live in "far off lands". So, if I end up not able to go back to AU in January for whatever reason I think I want to blow all that money I've saved up and go somewhere... anywhere. I wouldn't mind staying on and helping with kidding season and maybe save up some more money (preferably with better hours at a job either where I am now or at a different employer). But there are friends I haven't seen in at least two or three years (and some more then that) that I'd really love to go visit.

Maybe I'll jump in my car and just drive til it won't go anymore. Or maybe I'll fly to somewhere in Europe and see whatever I can. Or maybe I'll fly to Michigan or Indiana and visit everybody I know out there and then hop a plane to the west coast and visit everybody out there and then maybe hop another plane to France or Switzerland or Italy or Germany or...

I guess really I'm just not happy with my job, I'm sick of having next to no life outside of school and work, and I don't know how I'll handle not going back to AU. And if I don't get to go back I'm not so sure I want to keep trying. Maybe I'm starting to get tired of not knowing what I'm doing with my life and what my next move/step should be for anything. I hate the idea of leaving here and getting replaced. But if that has to happen then I'd rather be far far away so maybe it'll stay off my mind a little better.

Well, there you have it: a bunch of random thoughts just rolling around and needing to get out.