tangents....

Why do people lie? If you don't think that you will do something then DON'T say you're going to do it. If you don't like the person just tell them you're not interested. If you don't think that you'll be able to help then don't say you will. If you say you are going to do something DO IT! If you say you will call, CALL. If you say we will go, GO. If you say that you can help, HELP. I'd rather have people be straight up with me! Tell me if you don't want to do something. Tell me that you don't think you'll be able to take me somewhere. Tell me you aren't interested in me and STOP leading me on. If you don't want me to go along don't invite me! And STOP using me!!!!!!! I'm not your maid, I'm not your servant, I'm a human with FEELINGS so treat me like it! Please be considerate of how I might feel and don't just think about yourself.

Why do people do some of the things they do? Tonight I went out to supper after the concert with four other people. I was also invited to go with another group to the movies. I didn't really want to go with the group I went with but I did because she's my friend and I didn't want her to feel uncomfortable. I did have a good time but I kinda wanted to go with the other group too. For some reason, I'm not sure why, I felt like I got backed into a corner and didn't really get the chance to decide for myself. I did have fun with the people I went with and I don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time it's just that... I don't know... I felt I needed to go with them because of the whole situation.

This week will be busy... starting tomorrow. I didn't get my film on Friday... stupid answering machine has the WRONG timeS on it!!!!!! grr! And I don't have the camera and I don't know when the cage is open... So... tomorrow I should: 1. get a camera 2. get film 3. shoot 4. develop the film 5. make some prints 6. go to Wind Symphony rehearsal for 2 hours tomorrow night (7-9) 7. work on two different papers and 8. catchup on Basic Design. 9. Clean my room so my roommate can stop hating me. But do you know what I feel like doing? NOTHING that's right... zip, notta, ziltch, NOTHING!

I woke up this morning angry. I think it might have had something to do with being woken up a while before my alarm went off by my roommate talking on the phone swearing... I fell back to sleep just to be awoken yet again when her sister came and they were NOT quiet! When I get a phone call or something late at night I go out in the hallway so I don't bother her and I always try to be super quiet in the morning getting ready so I don't bug her. She doesn't seem as concerned about me though which kinda sucks a bit.

Well, there is more to say but I'm falling asleep.... sorry about my little tangent!