Sometimes "Lonely" is the Word

Sometimes I'm overcome with spurts of loneliness.

I often feel super lonely when I'm home by myself for days. It leaves me too much quiet time to think about things I don't particularly want to think/worry about but my mind always seems to wander and STOP on. I almost always start thinking about the future: What if I don't have enough money to go back to AU? Should I keep my job here and find my own place to live so I get out of Andrew and Kim's hair? Should I find a second job, or third, or fourth? Would I be able to make ends meet if I go back to AU 2nd semester? Would it be cheaper/better for me to live on or off campus?
See? It drives me crazy!

Other times I feel lonely when I hear news about somebody(s) I know getting engaged/married. It always makes me wonder if I'll ever find my "special somebody" or if I'm destined to be single forever. And sometimes I end up wondering what's wrong with me that I've never even been on a date before.

And sometimes I just feel lonely when there's not really anyone to talk or cry to. I miss just walking down the hall at school and curling up into a ball on someone's bed or floor and having a good cry about whatever it is that's bothering me. Someone to just sit there with me for a little bit and not judge me.

Sometimes I just feel lonesome.